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Hi,
I've been thinking (a bit late in the course of things) that I have been making bad decisions...
Bad decision 1# Choosing Physics for my degree
2# Going for teaching (quit after two months)
3# Currently on course for an MRes leading to a Phd (...there's a little doutful
feeling at the back of my mind that this isn't the right decision)
But having said all that, I don't know what else to do with my life :/ (sounds lame I know) but I've spent so much time trying to think of what drives me, what I'm passionate about...etc but I came up with nothing, it's like I have no drive for anything. In fact I would become quite low and depressed by thinking about it all so much!
I've been looking at this self-help book lately and I completed a task and came up with this list of things in my life that align with my 'core values' apparently:
1. Exploring (If I had the opportunities to travel, try new things and didnt let fear of failure etc deabilitate me I would love this)
2. Creating (- again with practicalness)
3. Connecting (with people, gaining peoples respect, love and support etc)
4. Engaging (in reality, that is being more practical - i tend to be 'stuck in my mind too much-bleh')
5. Learning (new things continuosly, thinking about things).
:/ Trying to get some insight into what it is I want out of life. I always imagined I would be a scientist -almost like a default setting. I don't know now. I feel lost.
I've been thinking (a bit late in the course of things) that I have been making bad decisions...
Bad decision 1# Choosing Physics for my degree
2# Going for teaching (quit after two months)
3# Currently on course for an MRes leading to a Phd (...there's a little doutful
feeling at the back of my mind that this isn't the right decision)
But having said all that, I don't know what else to do with my life :/ (sounds lame I know) but I've spent so much time trying to think of what drives me, what I'm passionate about...etc but I came up with nothing, it's like I have no drive for anything. In fact I would become quite low and depressed by thinking about it all so much!
I've been looking at this self-help book lately and I completed a task and came up with this list of things in my life that align with my 'core values' apparently:
1. Exploring (If I had the opportunities to travel, try new things and didnt let fear of failure etc deabilitate me I would love this)
2. Creating (- again with practicalness)
3. Connecting (with people, gaining peoples respect, love and support etc)
4. Engaging (in reality, that is being more practical - i tend to be 'stuck in my mind too much-bleh')
5. Learning (new things continuosly, thinking about things).
:/ Trying to get some insight into what it is I want out of life. I always imagined I would be a scientist -almost like a default setting. I don't know now. I feel lost.