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blade123
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Hey PF, just thought I'd post a story. Kind of long, sorry.
I'm 19 next week, and a freshman at a community college.
Long story short, up until this semester my school effort has been hit and miss. I'd do great sometimes, then terrible at others. Until senior year, I just stopped caring. For various reasons, right before/after graduation I got REAL heavy into drugs (it progressed fast, I started mixing high doses of heavy things pretty fast. ER visit. Used needles). I pretty much gave up all hope of having a good/normal life. Last semester, I took easy as **** classes and didn't really try. Honestly, I was close to dropping out.
Now some real heavy **** happened that made me think about the path I was going down. I decided to get my **** in gear, and I really have enjoyed the sciences/math. So this semester I decided to step it up, and take some real classes to figure out what I liked.
I'm taking precalc, physics 1, abnormal psych (gen ed), international relations (gen ed).
I've been taking physics with a teacher who is regarded as one of the hardest physics teacher on campus, and honestly I'm loving it. It's hard as ****, but I LOVE physics. I've started to study calculus on my own, and I've been doing great in all my classes. I just started spring break, and I had midterms last week. I have a few more weeks left in the semester, and I'm doing great. 2 solid As in the gen eds, and a B in math, and a current B, but it might go to an A because of the last exam which I beasted on, in physics. I only had one part of one problem I was a little unsure of, but I gave it a solid, logical effort so I should at least get half credit.
In a few days, I register for summer courses, I'm taking Calculus 1 and philosophy (gen ed) over the summer. That will prepare me to fill out the TAG form for UC Davis in 5 months, which means I'm on the path to being a junior physics major at UC Davis Fall 2012.
I'm also putting together my Fall schedule. Calculus 2, Discrete Math, Physics for Engineering A: Wave Motion, and Critical Thinking (a gen ed). I register for that in a little less than a month.
So I'm just sitting here, not much homework to do over break, semester almost over, just looking back at how much I've grown in just ONE semester. I sobered up, and was clean for 2 months straight. I started to drink/smoke again, but nowhere NEAR what I used to. I also started to eat a lot better. I also stopped hanging out with the freaks I was, they were doing nothing but hurting me.
I feel so accomplished. And I know precalc and non-calc based physics 1 really isn't that difficult or that amazing of a feat, but Jesus...6 months ago I was using needles and getting in trouble with the law all the time. Now I spend my free time studying something that I really enjoy, and something that will actually make my life better...dig?
If you take nothing else from this post...no matter how bad you're doing, you CAN pull yourself up. I'm not saying it's easy. Actually, the first few weeks of this semester were absolute HELL. I went from getting ****ed up and partying and enjoying life to being sober and not having ANY friends and having to deal with a heavy course-load. I was extremely lonely, bored, depressed, anxious. I felt like total ****, honestly.
I'm not saying it's easy, but it's doable.
I'm just looking back at how much I've grown. I'm also looking forward to the coming semesters and getting deeper into physics, and applying calculus to it. Because after studying some calc by myself, a lot of physics makes a hell of a lot more sense.
Also, if you or someone you know is in a situation where you're using a lot, hanging out with the wrong people, going down the wrong path, don't be down on yourself. Honestly, some people just need to go through that. I know I did. I NEEDED to go through a period of insanity to make me appreciate a straight life of studying and occasional hanging with friends who ACTUALLY care about me. The only thing is once you cross a certain point, you can't come back. You can change how you live if you know how else to live, you know?
I'm 19 next week, and a freshman at a community college.
Long story short, up until this semester my school effort has been hit and miss. I'd do great sometimes, then terrible at others. Until senior year, I just stopped caring. For various reasons, right before/after graduation I got REAL heavy into drugs (it progressed fast, I started mixing high doses of heavy things pretty fast. ER visit. Used needles). I pretty much gave up all hope of having a good/normal life. Last semester, I took easy as **** classes and didn't really try. Honestly, I was close to dropping out.
Now some real heavy **** happened that made me think about the path I was going down. I decided to get my **** in gear, and I really have enjoyed the sciences/math. So this semester I decided to step it up, and take some real classes to figure out what I liked.
I'm taking precalc, physics 1, abnormal psych (gen ed), international relations (gen ed).
I've been taking physics with a teacher who is regarded as one of the hardest physics teacher on campus, and honestly I'm loving it. It's hard as ****, but I LOVE physics. I've started to study calculus on my own, and I've been doing great in all my classes. I just started spring break, and I had midterms last week. I have a few more weeks left in the semester, and I'm doing great. 2 solid As in the gen eds, and a B in math, and a current B, but it might go to an A because of the last exam which I beasted on, in physics. I only had one part of one problem I was a little unsure of, but I gave it a solid, logical effort so I should at least get half credit.
In a few days, I register for summer courses, I'm taking Calculus 1 and philosophy (gen ed) over the summer. That will prepare me to fill out the TAG form for UC Davis in 5 months, which means I'm on the path to being a junior physics major at UC Davis Fall 2012.
I'm also putting together my Fall schedule. Calculus 2, Discrete Math, Physics for Engineering A: Wave Motion, and Critical Thinking (a gen ed). I register for that in a little less than a month.
So I'm just sitting here, not much homework to do over break, semester almost over, just looking back at how much I've grown in just ONE semester. I sobered up, and was clean for 2 months straight. I started to drink/smoke again, but nowhere NEAR what I used to. I also started to eat a lot better. I also stopped hanging out with the freaks I was, they were doing nothing but hurting me.
I feel so accomplished. And I know precalc and non-calc based physics 1 really isn't that difficult or that amazing of a feat, but Jesus...6 months ago I was using needles and getting in trouble with the law all the time. Now I spend my free time studying something that I really enjoy, and something that will actually make my life better...dig?
If you take nothing else from this post...no matter how bad you're doing, you CAN pull yourself up. I'm not saying it's easy. Actually, the first few weeks of this semester were absolute HELL. I went from getting ****ed up and partying and enjoying life to being sober and not having ANY friends and having to deal with a heavy course-load. I was extremely lonely, bored, depressed, anxious. I felt like total ****, honestly.
I'm not saying it's easy, but it's doable.
I'm just looking back at how much I've grown. I'm also looking forward to the coming semesters and getting deeper into physics, and applying calculus to it. Because after studying some calc by myself, a lot of physics makes a hell of a lot more sense.
Also, if you or someone you know is in a situation where you're using a lot, hanging out with the wrong people, going down the wrong path, don't be down on yourself. Honestly, some people just need to go through that. I know I did. I NEEDED to go through a period of insanity to make me appreciate a straight life of studying and occasional hanging with friends who ACTUALLY care about me. The only thing is once you cross a certain point, you can't come back. You can change how you live if you know how else to live, you know?