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Posty McPostface
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Hi, I suffer from bad anxiety and depression along with ADD-PI. I know I sound like a basket case; but, have the greatest amount of enthusiasm for furthering my education. I'm in my late twenties and have dropped out of college due to the above issues. However, the curiosity is still unrelenting and I thrive off of intellectual topics and understanding the world better.
With my makeup, I understand that I don't handle stress well and try to avoid it like the plague. However, college is a stressful environment that just can't be avoided unless I do some online college courses instead of physically being present at college. I do have an issue with online education, in that I don't believe it's as deep and thorough as being physically present in a classroom and following the train of thought proposed by the lecturer. On the upside, once I'm in college as opposed to sitting at home and dwelling over my deficits, I feel much better and free from said concerns. A change in environment really makes a world of difference. My intended major is economics with a possible minor in philosophy or psychology after a concentrated effort in medicine and dabbling with engineering while at CC. (Is the minor just redundant?) I maintained a decent GPA prior to dropping out and know I can do better. I'm also on the right medication for my issues and try and practice CBT along with taking some simple supplements for anxiety, such as lavender extract and bacopa. I'm also aware of the resources available once at college, such as CAPS, to support me in possible times of need.
However, I still have deep concerns with 'functioning' and not getting into a funk while being exposed to stress. This has left me with a core belief that I'm somehow inadequate or not up for the job. This is really bothersome because there's no way to disprove that belief, only prove it. It could be a cognitive distortion of some mix of overgeneralization/magnifying the negative/black and white thinking/and, disregarding the positive. I also take things too seriously in life, which is something most college students probably do to some degree, and often oscillate between giving up or giving it my best. 'Giving up' seems to be the default attitude when facing adversity, and that definitely needs to change...
Anyway, as you can see, I am aware of my issues; but, am still hopeful about the possibility of overcoming them. I would appreciate any tips or advice that others in a similar boat or situation have gone through.
With my makeup, I understand that I don't handle stress well and try to avoid it like the plague. However, college is a stressful environment that just can't be avoided unless I do some online college courses instead of physically being present at college. I do have an issue with online education, in that I don't believe it's as deep and thorough as being physically present in a classroom and following the train of thought proposed by the lecturer. On the upside, once I'm in college as opposed to sitting at home and dwelling over my deficits, I feel much better and free from said concerns. A change in environment really makes a world of difference. My intended major is economics with a possible minor in philosophy or psychology after a concentrated effort in medicine and dabbling with engineering while at CC. (Is the minor just redundant?) I maintained a decent GPA prior to dropping out and know I can do better. I'm also on the right medication for my issues and try and practice CBT along with taking some simple supplements for anxiety, such as lavender extract and bacopa. I'm also aware of the resources available once at college, such as CAPS, to support me in possible times of need.
However, I still have deep concerns with 'functioning' and not getting into a funk while being exposed to stress. This has left me with a core belief that I'm somehow inadequate or not up for the job. This is really bothersome because there's no way to disprove that belief, only prove it. It could be a cognitive distortion of some mix of overgeneralization/magnifying the negative/black and white thinking/and, disregarding the positive. I also take things too seriously in life, which is something most college students probably do to some degree, and often oscillate between giving up or giving it my best. 'Giving up' seems to be the default attitude when facing adversity, and that definitely needs to change...
Anyway, as you can see, I am aware of my issues; but, am still hopeful about the possibility of overcoming them. I would appreciate any tips or advice that others in a similar boat or situation have gone through.