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Limited_Dasein
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I'm in my second year, and I feel very discouraged and scared. I don't know what I'm doing, and I'm questioning whether this is right for me.
I was doing very well, acing everything, until last semester when I was juggling two jobs, one full time, and ended up in the hospital during midterms.
Due to some amazing professors, and a lot of very stressful nights I managed to get an A in everything except calc 2, which was a B+. I felt slightly better, this semester has started rough.
I am taking a computer programming class, and I literally have no idea what's happening. Students ask the professor lots of questions, and I have no idea what the students are asking. And in my physics class, there's only three of us, and they all already have bachelor's degrees in other fields.
Meanwhile I'm sitting here having just started calc 3, trying to understand what's being talked about. I understand the textbook, and aced the first exam, but I feel like I have such a superficial understanding of the general picture.
I feel like there's so much base foundation knowledge that I just don't have. I feel as if I'm drowning in all the little things I have to look up and try to learn on the fly, since my physics class has progressed way past where I'm at in my calculus class. And my programming class is moving along as if you already know how to program.
The only thing I feel confident in the semester is calc 3. As for everything else, I don't feel confident. I feel so stupid. I've never felt so stupid. I'm trying so hard. I'm working 30 hours a week, on top of 19 credit hours, and I don't know how I can push myself harder. I have to support myself financially, I have no other choice, I'm on my own.
I'm scared, and I don't know if I should continue pursuing physics even though it is my dream. I need advice on what I should be doing, not doing, or what other paths might be good for me. Anything is greatly appreciated, thank you.
I was doing very well, acing everything, until last semester when I was juggling two jobs, one full time, and ended up in the hospital during midterms.
Due to some amazing professors, and a lot of very stressful nights I managed to get an A in everything except calc 2, which was a B+. I felt slightly better, this semester has started rough.
I am taking a computer programming class, and I literally have no idea what's happening. Students ask the professor lots of questions, and I have no idea what the students are asking. And in my physics class, there's only three of us, and they all already have bachelor's degrees in other fields.
Meanwhile I'm sitting here having just started calc 3, trying to understand what's being talked about. I understand the textbook, and aced the first exam, but I feel like I have such a superficial understanding of the general picture.
I feel like there's so much base foundation knowledge that I just don't have. I feel as if I'm drowning in all the little things I have to look up and try to learn on the fly, since my physics class has progressed way past where I'm at in my calculus class. And my programming class is moving along as if you already know how to program.
The only thing I feel confident in the semester is calc 3. As for everything else, I don't feel confident. I feel so stupid. I've never felt so stupid. I'm trying so hard. I'm working 30 hours a week, on top of 19 credit hours, and I don't know how I can push myself harder. I have to support myself financially, I have no other choice, I'm on my own.
I'm scared, and I don't know if I should continue pursuing physics even though it is my dream. I need advice on what I should be doing, not doing, or what other paths might be good for me. Anything is greatly appreciated, thank you.
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