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Yeah, so i was looking through the archives at every post I've ever made. And its really neat to see the way my posts progressed. Originally, i only ever asked question, i didn't make many statements that could be refuted or argued. I was too scared. most of you don't know this, but I'm terribly insecure. don't ask me why, and i know i don't show it, but i am. When i first joined here i went through wicked mood swings. I'd get all depressed if i post and everyone ignored it, and more depressed if people commented on it negatively. But i'd get such a high when someone would agree with me, or just say something nice to me.
eventually i grew out of that, and i was able to post and get replies with less emotion. That's when i started all those fun sex threads. Sex tends to be something I'm pretty comfortable with, so when I'm in situations where I'm trying to relax and fit in, i always talk about sex. Course, i still mostly started my own threads, tried to stay away from commenting on everyone else's. I was wicked wicked insecure.
Now, i can be shot down just as thoroughly as anyone else without bursting into tears (quite an accomplishment ) I'm pretty comfortable with people around here. But its just so amazing to see how much I've grown since joining. Whats even more amazing is how closely my behavior here follows my everyday behaivor in the real world. And i know I've only been around here a few months, but i already feel a twinge of nastalgia when i read those old threads. Also, half the time i never even finished reading the threads. There are a lot of posts i never read way back when. And even cooler is when i see threads with replies from people then who were just nobody, and who now I'm like buddy buddy with. Like... i can see the humble beginings of our friendships growing here in pf... haha ok I'm a nut
hmm... also funny to note how long my posts are compared to my begining. I'd have never written anything this long back then. WAYYY TO SCARY! haha. well anyways, I'm still sick... and that homework still isn't very done...
eventually i grew out of that, and i was able to post and get replies with less emotion. That's when i started all those fun sex threads. Sex tends to be something I'm pretty comfortable with, so when I'm in situations where I'm trying to relax and fit in, i always talk about sex. Course, i still mostly started my own threads, tried to stay away from commenting on everyone else's. I was wicked wicked insecure.
Now, i can be shot down just as thoroughly as anyone else without bursting into tears (quite an accomplishment ) I'm pretty comfortable with people around here. But its just so amazing to see how much I've grown since joining. Whats even more amazing is how closely my behavior here follows my everyday behaivor in the real world. And i know I've only been around here a few months, but i already feel a twinge of nastalgia when i read those old threads. Also, half the time i never even finished reading the threads. There are a lot of posts i never read way back when. And even cooler is when i see threads with replies from people then who were just nobody, and who now I'm like buddy buddy with. Like... i can see the humble beginings of our friendships growing here in pf... haha ok I'm a nut
hmm... also funny to note how long my posts are compared to my begining. I'd have never written anything this long back then. WAYYY TO SCARY! haha. well anyways, I'm still sick... and that homework still isn't very done...